It's A............

It's a Girl! Madison Shea Lee will be here sometime around December 25, 2009. She is weighing in at 1pound and 4 ozs. I am not sure if this is big or little at this age. I am almost 23 weeks. We did find out at our 20 week appointment that I am textbook in size as far as uterus growth is concerned. Mitchell is excited just a little sad that he is not having a boy. But like I reminded him today we can always have another baby. After awhile that is not RIGHT away!


The first Picture is her looking at us and the second on is of her little feet.. Thought you guys would enjoy them!

Still Thinking of You

It is coming up on your due date, and even though I now have another baby to look forward to, you will always be my first born. I didn't think that with as much as me and you father have going on that I would be affected as much as I am. I found myself sitting up late the other night with your ultra sound picture in hand and just thinking about how excited I should be right now. You would be in my arms in the next few weeks, I would be a proud mom and Mitchell would be a proud daddy. We were so surprised and excited when we found out about you coming. You were the best thing that could of ever happened to our lives. On the day of our 15 week appointment our world felt like it was ending, and now that you should be in my life I feel as if my world in ending again. I should be happy I will be bringing your little brother or sister into this world by the end of the year, so why do I feel sad all over again?

The reason I am writing to you is to let you know that you will always hold a place in heart and that I love you and always will. You were everything to me, and my only regrets are that I was never able to hold you no matter how small you were and that we were unable to find out what sex you where. I can't wait to get to heaven to be with you. And for you to be able to meet the rest of your family that loves and misses you. I will try and not cry knowing that I will see you and be able to be with you in heaven. I love you Baby Wiemann and hope that the time that I am sad will pass and that peace will come.

Our Car Wreck

On our way home we were t-boned by the lady behind us . Mitchell was taking a left hand turn and had his signal on to make the left hand turn when the lady driving behind us t-boned us on the left side in the middle of the driver door. I went to the ER today to make sure that everything is OK. I am glad to let you know that the baby was moving around and the heartbeat was very strong. My finger is very badly sprained and in a sprint but other than that all is well with Mitchell me and the baby. But please keep us in your prayers, as we go through the rest of our pregnancy.

God Answers Prayers!

I was sitting here the other day talking to Mitchell and us both having some quiet time, and I started to laugh a little. The one thing that Mitchell and I just don't understand is why. Why make us happy to let it be taken away? We both understand that it is God's plan and we need to just follow it, we are trying but it is hard. Now the reason that I laughed is because ever since I got pregnant I started to pray for our unborn child's life. I prayed that God would allow to help my child have a love and Passion for the Lord that was so undeniable that no one would be able to break it. And as I sat in my quiet time I had to laugh and think God answered my prayer, because our child will always have a love and relationship with God that will NEVER be broken. It made me happy and feel a little more at peace. I was talking to my manager at work about this, and another one of the ladies at work said well next time be careful what you pray for. This is not the case just because God answered this prayer in a way none of us expected I will continue to pray for my unborn children that there life and heart will be for God and that there passion and Love for the Lord will be so strong and seen that people will notice and want to be like them. Thank you for the continued prayers and thoughts they are felt. But just know that Mitchell and I have started to feel peace and at times we are not as strong as we would like but we are making it through. Thank you for everything. God Answers prayers even if it is not in the way we want him to, but I am just glad that Mitchell and I are glad that we can still hold onto Him even through the bad times!

Thanks

I just wanted to thank all the people who have prayed and commented there words of encouragement. It has meant so much to Mitchell and I. We have felt your prayers and thoughts and it is helping us through this difficult time. A few people I want to call out and thank. To our mothers with out you guys here to help us through this and get our house a little more organized I don't know what we would have done. You two are truthfully the most amazing woman that we know. You helped us more than you will know and I don't know if we will ever be able to thank you enough. To my sister Autumn and her husband Marv, thank you for letting Shayla come down here with our mothers. She got a little to much to handle at times and mom had to take her and deal with it but she was also such a blessing. On Monday after the ultra sound Shayla came up to me and first wiped Nana's tears, because she understood Nana and baby needed some help because we "were sick". She then lifted my shirt to "see baby" and kissed my belly and we then explained to her that baby was going to heaven to be with God because God needed the baby more than we did. She then kissed my belly. It was sweet and heartbreaking all at the same time. We had a few moments like this through out the week were we would have to explain to her what was going on, and everytime I choked up or started to tear up shayla was there to wipe away Nana's tears, as she put it she came to take care of Nana while I was sick. I would also like to thank Amber for helping to post things for the blog and also calling people for prayer, it was amazing how much you did for us we love you. And Skye thank you for messaging me when ever I need you to or to tlak to me when I call believe it or not it means so much to sometimes to just talk about something besides the baby or to even just talk about baby Wiemann and to just let you know what is going on in my head. I love you. Also thank you to My brother-in-laws and Aaron(I don't know what to call you yet-hehe) the flowers were awesome thank you guys for thinking of me!

1.26.09 7:00pm Update

I just got off of the phone with Alana, she sounds a little groggy but much better than she did this morning when I spoke with her (this is Amber again).
She is feeling fine physically, just minor cramping and very tired. She is at home now, which is good, and is taking it easy - I'm sure with both of the moms there & Mitch, she is being very well taken care of.
Alana had expressed a desire to see the baby if she could but because of the procedure and the time that the baby was left in the womb, this was not possible. They were also unable to find out the sex of the baby.

Alana (& Mitch), I don't have any words to say to take away the pain, and to be honest, I don't think I would even if I could, because to lose the pain would mean that this baby didn't matter, and that simply wouldn't be true. Your child, my niece or nephew, will forever be a part of my/our lives, and will never be forgotten. Even though we never had the privilege of holding your gift in our arms, we will always carry him/her in our heart.
I want you both to know that it's okay to hurt, and it's okay to grieve, just be sure that you allow the Holy Spirit to comfort you and strengthen you.
I love you both so much.

I found this video online today and I want to dedicate it to you, Alana, my wonderful sister.

Update 1.26.09 10:35

Hello Everyone,
This is Amber (Alana's Sister). I was called and asked to update her blog for her.
Alana's appointment was at 9:00 this morning (eastern time). She had another ultrasound which has confirmed that the baby did not have a heartbeat.
The ultrasound has shown that the baby has been without life for some time, they are estimating about 4 weeks. I know that several of you had questions regarding, proof, and certainty and there were several signs that the baby has in fact been without a heartbeat/life for sometime, I prefer to not go into all the details without direct permission from the family.
They gave Alana and Mitchell the option to wait and see if Alana's body would pass the baby on it's own or to have a D&E (which is similar to a D&C but with a vacuum instead of scraping). They have decided to go ahead with the D&E today.

Alana and Mitchell are doing as well as can be expected (which is not well). My mom and Mitchell's mom are there with them and are supporting them in every way that they know how.

The doctor's are fairly certain that this miscarriage is NOT the result of anything that the baby/Alana was exposed to or did, if that were the case, the miscarriage would more than likely have occurred much earlier. Because she was as far along as she was they are leaning more towards a genetic reason. They may never know for sure.

Please pray for Alana as she goes into surgery, pray for God's peace and presence to surround both her, Mitchell and both families. I feel like I have so much more to ask for but will leave it at that for now.

Thank you for your prayers and support, they are very much felt and appreciated.
If you would like Mitchell & Alana's information (phone numbers, email or address) please e-mail me at aschoessow@gmail.com